What can we say?♥♥

Its almost 2am and i'm still studying
not cause i want to but because i need to.
Not been feeling very good lately:/
Everything seems to be going wrong.

Been feeling like there's a huge weight on my shoulders.
Nothing that can be removed so easily until the end of November.
Could really use someone to give me some encouragement nowadays.
I'm not asking for a lot.
Just a little push to tell me that its okay
and a little help when i fall down.
I dunno. Been tripping a lot these past few days.
Someone who can give me strength.
Been feeling alone lately.
Not from the lack of company.
I'm thankful for all the people around me.
But just the absence of moral support i guess.
Feeling drained from all the things i have to deal with
Want it to be all over soon
so that i can get back to being normal and healthy for once.

Been feeling sick so often.
trying very hard to remain positive.
The fasting month is not helping much.
Wearing me thin so fast:/
Never been so emotionally challenged.
So sensitive lately.
Things are so difficult.

i miss my boy.
He's so far away.
i know he's busy with he's own things too
Don't want to bother him much with my whining.
He has his own problems too.
He's been good to me.
Always making me happy.
Can see he's trying very hard nowadays.
Thank you baby.
If you can see me now, i look pathetic.

Too clingy.
Need a hug badly.
or even a pat on my shoulder.
Kinda hard to feel good about myself when
the pressure is building.
Its suffocating, really.

How can i expect to look forward to tomorrow
when today seems so bleak
I dunno what the rewards are
or even of i'll taste it.
I won't if i don't sacrifice now
and put aside what is not important
Just be clear about what i need to do
Follow th plan.
Stick with it. period.

missing my boy badly.
didn't have a good talk with him just now.
feeling worse than before
cannot stand to hurt him or make him angry.
better to keep it in
because he's my damn everything
it JUST another childish and immature matter
nothing big that is worth fighting over
give and take dinah.
grow up.
not all is about you.
you know you love him.
so suck it in.
Think before talking
sometimes its just a momentary feeling
and impulsive reaction.

focus, dinah